Breach Your Mind
Explore life's depths and unlock the secrets of mental well-being on "Breach Your Mind." Join us as we navigate the intricacies of the human experience, offering insights, inspiration, and practical strategies for a fulfilling life. Get ready to breach the barriers of conventional thinking, embrace self-discovery, and nurture your mental health. Let's embark on a transformative journey together. Welcome to Breach Your Mind.
Breach Your Mind
From Morning Coffee to Car Repairs
Ever felt the sting of self-doubt while pursuing personal growth? Join me as I confront my own insecurities in real-time, choosing to publish rather than delete a vulnerable video of my day off. This decision embodies the spirit of facing challenges head-on and showcases the raw, unedited moments that make personal development an ongoing journey. You'll witness my struggle to balance authenticity with self-criticism and the surprising lessons that emerge when you practice what you preach.
Get ready for a rollercoaster of a day off, blending moments of cherished routines with the unpredictability of unplanned tasks. Experience the simple joy of a morning coffee with my wife, juxtaposed with the necessity of taking her car to the dealership—despite my preference for DIY maintenance. Through candid observations and reflections, this segment reveals how a lack of strict scheduling can still lead to meaningful and memorable moments. The fluidity of my day offers a reminder of the importance of flexibility and appreciating the small things in life.
Step into the world of home gardening with me as I tackle the ever-evolving project of reworking our garden borders. From initial setbacks and eroded soil to creative improvisations with rocks, you'll gain insight into the perseverance required to maintain a beautiful yard. I'll share the thought process behind our landscaping choices, including the trials and errors that led to our current setup. Whether you're a gardening enthusiast or just love hearing about personal projects, this episode is filled with relatable experiences and inspiring moments that highlight the value of persistence and creativity.
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Speaker 1:So the episode you're about to watch is one that I wasn't going to publish, wasn't going to do the post-production, put it together and do everything that I'd normally do. Y'all were actually never going to know it ever existed, and the general principle behind it was just basically, following me on a day off you know what I do on a day off. However, when I went back and started reviewing the videos and the clips and things like that, so that I could start the post-production on it, there was something about it that I didn't like. It was something that was a personal thing, and because I didn't like it, I told myself I wasn't going to post it. Um, I was going to delete it and get rid of it and just reshoot the next day, but I didn't do it immediately and I held onto it overnight and the next morning it dawned on me that what I was about to do was something that is completely contradictory to the purpose of doing this whole podcast to begin with, because doing this podcast to begin with was to help people get past things, get over things, move on, you know, discover things in themselves, you know, just get some personal growth out of it. And in turn, here I was about to completely delete an entire day, an entire day's worth of making videos, because of a personal issue, because of something that I personally had an issue with with the videos and that goes against everything that I'm trying to do with the podcast. So, despite everything in me telling me to get rid of the video, risking every bit of the criticism that's going to come from it that doesn't already come, I'm going to post it Because of some audio issues, there is going to be probably some voiceovers throughout it, because at the time I have not done the post-production on it yet. But I am going to post it and the tone of the video is much different now than just something as simple as what I do on a day off.
Speaker 1:To me it's more profound now because, as big of a hurdle as it was for me to one start a podcast and then to start doing videos of those podcasts, this one is equally, just as difficult for me. Like I said, for personal reasons, it's difficult for me to do this particular video, and it may be something that that we get into in a little while or something like that, but, you know, for personal issues I was going to completely get rid of it because it was that difficult for me to watch, for me to see, especially considering how critical of myself that I am. So I wasn't going to do it and thankfully, I decided the following day that posting that video, against everything in my instinct telling me not to, is the better option. And it's the better option because I've got to practice what I preach, and if I'm going to tell people that they have to get out of their comfort zones, if I'm going to tell people that, in order to get past these things that are causing them hangups, then I probably should practice it myself. For the most part, I do, but I wasn't expecting this one. I really wasn't expecting to see what I saw in this video, um. So, that being the case, it is what it is and I'm going to post it, and that's what this episode is going to be about. It's going to be spending a day with me on a day off and me trying to work on overcoming some personal issues myself. So hope you enjoy guys. Bye, team 1, stand by. Copy. Team 1, standing by Breach, breach, breach, breach, breach, breach.
Speaker 1:So I got asked recently what does a day off for me look like, and I was able to explain it to the person kind of generalized. But for me it's not always easy to explain what a day off for me looks like, mainly because I honestly don't know what my day off is going to consist of Like. Every once in a while I'll have some things planned out that I know I'm going to do, like go to the gym or work out or whatever. Sometimes I've got training, but when I don't have those things, most of the times I don't really know what I'm going to do. Um, I'll have an idea of things I want to do, but I don't always know what that's going to be. So I kind of give them a generalized idea of what a day off for me looks like. But I thought after that that, hey, that might be something interesting in, or interesting enough to document. So that's what I'm gonna do today. I'm going to document what my day off looks like. Now. Side note, this is not one of my typical day offs because I do have at least one thing planned for today. It's planned for early morning and I need to stop recording so I can go, but I do have something that I have to do this morning. So that's what we're going to go do. I don't particularly care for this one because I'm somebody that likes to do things for myself, especially like this, but it makes it easier for me and we'll discuss that when it comes time. But that's what we're going to do today. We're going to document, like most of my day, and just kind of catch you up.
Speaker 1:It is currently eight-ish something in the morning and so far I I have gotten up, spent some time with the wife. Um, I do get some weird looks from time to time, uh, but that's you know. I get up and spend time with my wife in the morning because, you know, at one time we were both on shift work, so wasn't a whole lot of time, um, spent together, because a lot of times we were passing each other on the way home or going to work, or the time we were home together, it was, you know, a couple hours here before we had to go to bed and get up and go to our respective jobs. So we kind of developed a routine that you know, I'll get up when she gets up in the mornings on my days off, well, I'll get up when she gets up and we'll spend some time together. So we try to do it as much as possible. Well, now that she's not on shift work anymore, she's got that normal Monday through Friday kind of job. Um, I still continue that. So I'll get up when she gets up and, uh, we'll drink some coffee and we just kind of spend a couple hours or whatever together before she has to leave and go off to work.
Speaker 1:Like I said, some people kind of look at me a little weird, but you know, it's just a way for me to spend a little time with the wife. So that's what I did this morning and I didn't record that because that's my time. Y'all don't get to have that. But we've done that, we've gotten a shower and now we're off to go run the one errand that I have to do and then we'll see where it goes from there because, like I said, my days aren't usually planned out. I have some ideas of things that I need to do or want to do or whatever, but we'll see what goes from there. So, with that, I'm gonna cut this thing off so I can get on the road and get to where I'm going. All right, see you in a bit. All right, so we're here.
Speaker 1:We got here about 30 minutes early and what we are is a local car dealer or a car dealers, and I had to bring my wife's car up here for an oil change. That irritates me because I do my oil change on my truck. I do those things all the time. However, in order to keep the warranty, it has to be well tracked and traced and all that good stuff to ensure that you know all the proper maintenance and preventative maintenance is done to the vehicle, and I, unfortunately, am not organized enough and I'm too lazy to keep track of that stuff on my own. So this is a dealership. We keep track of it on the app and all that good stuff here for me to keep track of it, keep track of it on the app and all that good stuff, and I waste my time sitting here Something I can do 20, 30 minutes at the house. I spend up here for an hour and I spend more money for it, but in the long run it's going to keep the warranty update or keep the warranty updated and I don't have to worry about being out of warranty. So I believe I'm fairly certain those things are a scam and I don't have to worry about being out of warranty. So I believe I'm fairly certain those things are a scam to begin with because they're going to find a way to get you in the end of my own opinion.
Speaker 1:But I guess we'll find out. So here I am, wasting however much time it is. Like I said, we got here about a half hour early. I don't know if they're going to get it done faster. I originally scheduled my appointment for 9, and then when I got the notification this morning or the reminder this morning, it said your appointment's at 9.15. And then when I'm watching the gentleman write down the day's schedule, he put my name next to 9.30. So here's hoping it don't take that long. It is currently 926. I think they're already working on it, but I guess we'll find out. So we're going to continue on with the day and see where this goes.
Speaker 1:Also, anybody else notice how red my nose is? I have no idea why my nose is that red, like I wear sunglasses, but you'd think if my nose is going to be that red, that other parts of my face would be that red too. But yet it's not. It's curious, alright. So there's been a little more progress that y'all weren't along for.
Speaker 1:Didn't take that long for the oil change. So told you about the little debacle. With the time it was 9 and 9.15 and 9.30. However, at 9.52 they called me up and said hey, your vehicle's done. However, I will say that seeing the price of just an oil change and a tire rotation is a motivator to figure out a way to track this stuff so that I can still keep the warranty. Because the uh, the price for labor an oil change and a tire rotation was going to be 124 freaking dollars. Rotation was going to be a hundred and twenty four freaking dollars $124 to do a damn oil change that I can do in 30 minutes in a driveway. So, yeah, gonna have to figure something out because that's absolutely ridiculous.
Speaker 1:Now, that being said, got done with there and we've gone to the pharmacy and we've done what we needed to do there and then made another stop. That wasn't exactly planned. If any of you are impulsive then you completely understand. But I had been thinking about doing something and kind of researching it and hadn't done it, just had already decided that I didn't need to do it. But while I waited for something at the pharmacy, I took a trip over to harbor freight and I went ahead and bought me a pressure washer.
Speaker 1:So there's a pressure washer in the back of the truck. Now I was gonna try to put it in the cab because I also want to stop by lowe's, but it don't fit. Like I'm sure. If I pulled it out of the box and all that right now, I could probably put it in there. But I don't trust people enough to leave my brand new pressure washer in the bed of the truck while I go to Lowe's. So that means a second trip. So I'm gonna have to run home, drop that off, then turn around and come back up so I can go to lowe's to do what I was going to do at lowe's, which I also decided last minute that I was going to do.
Speaker 1:But that kind of schedule works out because I can grab a protein bar because I was leaving this morning and forgot to take a protein bar with me. I have not had anything to eat this morning, so that's going to work out, at least for that. But I am wasting gas, wasting time and a second trip. So, yeah, all right, let's keep going. It is 10, 36, 10, 36 and we've gotten three things accomplished. Well, four if you count the shower. And I think you should, because at least you did something with your day if you got a shower. So all right on to the next thing. All right, pressure washer has been secured and the protein bar has been acquired, which I will eat on the way there, and I also worked out because my fat furry friend at the house also needed to go outside. So we've got that and we're about to head back to Lowe's, which is about a 10 or 15 minute ride. Head up there, do what we've got to do there, come back and do something else, though side note, I like to think that I'm a fairly patient person, pretty understanding, so on and so forth.
Speaker 1:Don't usually get too worked up while driving. However, sitting in a traffic light on the way home and just looking around, as one does, you know, seeing what people are doing, what's going on, also being observant of my surroundings, and the light changed. And I had just looked at it, looked away, looked back up. The light changed, I started going. The person behind me started honking my horn. Generally, that doesn't irritate me, I ignore it, I move on with my day. I'm sorry you're so impatient, but, that being said, we turn onto the road and we start going and I reach the posted speed limit and as I look in my mirror and I'm watching behind me, I'm noticing that the person that was honking their horn at me is not even getting up to the posted speed limit. Like like they were honking because they were ready for me to go and then, like a mile down the road, I'm way ahead of them because they're not even running the posted speed limit. And it made me think like, why were you in such a hurry? What were you in such a hurry to do? Why, why was me being 0.025 seconds slower on a reaction time from the traffic light? Why was that such a big deal when you're not even going to run the posted speed limit? Like, what are you in a hurry for? Are you in a hurry just to hold up traffic? Like, why are you going to be rude on the road by honking your horn just to be rude to the people behind you and not even hold up or not even drive the posted speed limit and just hold up traffic, like that's your goal. Your goal is to hurry up, hurry up, get on a new road and drive slow to annoy the people behind you. I don't get it either way. Just a little sidebar there. Now, like I said, we are heading back to and we'll go from there. Hey Bye.
Speaker 1:Did I just push 800 pounds of rock across the Lowe's parking lot? Maybe Did I come out a door that was on the complete opposite side of where I parked. Also maybe, and the sad thing is I actually strategically parked. I like to do that. I don't mind walking, but I tried to park in such a way that I was equally as far from the entrance as I was the exit. It just kind of made sense to me. It balanced my brain out. However, I did not come out of the door that I planned on. Instead, I walked all the way across Lowe load to get a flat cart, pushed an empty flat cart all the way back across the other side and if, by the way, you've never done that, you get lots of attention when you do that Loaded up my rock and then remembered that I needed something inside the store, so I pushed said cart all the way back across the inside of the store that also gets a lot of looks got what I need to get and then came out the lumber entrance when I'm near the main entrance.
Speaker 1:So I have now pushed this rock all over the place and now I have to load it, so I'm'm going to do that now. I'll be back in a minute. All right, we've got it loaded. It is currently 1139. I now have 800 pounds of rock and one scantily secured gutter in the truck. So 1139,. We're finally headed back to the house to start doing something. So, and when I get there, I'll probably set up the tripod and let it hold the phone. That way I don't have to keep doing this. Plus, I got a neat little remote that I can use to start the recording. So, yeah, alright, back to the house. Okay, first off, I think I'm brilliant, okay.
Speaker 1:So I wanted to treat myself other than water, and what I decided to do was take my little can of Sprite Zero and add some Kool-Aid cherry to it. Zero calories in the Kool-Aid cherry. A couple of squirts of foamed up, some Bruh Like this is good. I'm enjoying this and if I do say so myself, that was quite ingenious myself. That was quite ingenious. Now, I don't know if.
Speaker 1:Well, those of you that watched the last podcast remember that I said that I started off on a bad morning, or one of the other podcasts. I said I started off on a bad morning and I woke up with a headache and I had a couple of choices I could sit around and do nothing or I could get up and start doing something. Well, obviously, because I recorded a podcast that day, I actually started doing something, and it started off by me going to the lake, the pond, whatever you want to call it, and doing a little three mile walk. Well, that's what got my day started, and then the rest of the day it wound up being right here. This was not in the plan, and I know you're saying saying, well, what do you mean? This? This big rock area? It was not a big rock area before that day and I had to explain this to my wife when she came home, because it looked quite a bit different.
Speaker 1:See, a while back, pretty much right after we got the house, she wanted a flower garden at some point, so we went and got the stuff to make a flower garden, dug out the old bushes that were here and I made her a flower garden. We put down the barrier, put down the dirt and all the other good stuff, and it was ready. Well, she found some flower seeds that she wanted to use, and neither one of us have a green thumb, so she just kind of put them down how she thought and watered them, all that good stuff. Well then we went away to dc on a trip and it stormed while we were gone again, mind you, neither one of us have a green thumb. We come home and the border that she picked out and that we put up had blown out and the dirt with the seeds eroded out of the area. It was probably I don't know about where I'm standing now all the way back to the porch. So a lot of the seeds were gone, the dirt was gone Pretty much. The flower bed was ruined.
Speaker 1:So I just broke that so fast forward, put the dirt back in, did the border better, and she decided that instead of planting seeds because they can wash off, she'd just buy some potted plants and we'd put some potted flowers in there. That, to me, made a whole lot more sense, because somebody else had already done the work to make sure those things have a chance to live, and that was the plan. Well, I don't know if any of y'all have gone and looked at the cost of potted plants, but when you go to a nursery to get some potted plants they're expensive, especially the ones that are nice ones like she wanted. They're expensive. Needless to say, we didn't get no potted plants, especially the ones that are nice ones like she wanted. They're expensive. Needless to say, we didn't get no potted plants, and because we weren't getting potted plants, I got tired of constantly weeding a dirt patch, so I let it go and it kind of grew over.
Speaker 1:Well, not long after that I decided that I wanted a flagpole and I thought what a better place to put a flagpole than right in the middle of the porch? Put it right in front of the flower bed. Do a little rock garden around it, it'll look really nice. So I did, but I went with a different border than she did. I went with the retaining wall blocks. I think they look better. They're more sturdy. You don't have to bury them, you can just let them sit on flat ground and they'll do what they're supposed to do. Or you can dig in and build up a retaining wall, like they're supposed to be done. So that worked out really well.
Speaker 1:Well, had that going and I've had my moments of laziness. I've had my moments of laziness with that, but because it was a rock garden and I didn't want flowers to go over there, grow there, I just spray it with some weed killer. I spray it with some weed killer and go on about my day. Well, I got lazy this last season and toward the end of the season I didn't really do much of anything for it and the weeds took it over. Not real bad, but enough. So that day thatwell. Let me go back a little bit.
Speaker 1:So what we wound up having was, back here, a big dirt patch with a bunch of weeds and grass growing in it, and then up here, like half of an oval that come off of her planter, with rocks and weeds and grass. Well, I didn't like the way it looked and because we used two different styles of border, I didn't care for how that looked either and I'd been thinking about what I could do to make it look differently, and all that. And I was having a hard time. And I was having a hard time see, grass weed. I was having a hard time figuring out what to do. So the time that I recorded that, at the time I recorded that last video, when I was dealing with the headache, I decided you know what, I'm just going to go out there and I'll sit there and stare at it and eventually I'll figure out exactly what I wanted to do. I'll sit there and stare at it and eventually I'll figure out exactly what I wanted to do. Well, I was staring at it and I couldn't figure it out. And I thought, you know what, maybe if I remove the weeds, if I remove the weeds, then I'll be able to figure it out a little easier, because then I won't be looking at the grass and the weeds and all that nastiness.
Speaker 1:So I got some tools and broke my garden rake. Oh wait, when I say I broke it, I broke it Literally just trying to use it as a rake. So I broke it. So I started trying to hand tool the weeds. Well, the weed barrier started coming up with it.
Speaker 1:So next thing, I know I'm tearing out this big old piece of weed barrier. That's what? Four foot wide. That's completely littered with weeds and grass. So I get it out and I throw it in the wagon on the mower. I'm looking at the other piece. I'm like you know what? I'm just gonna go ahead and tear it all out, nothing else. I can go ahead and just level it all out and you know, all I got to do is put down more barrier paper or fabric and put some new dirt on it. So I tore the other one out and then I got to looking at it and I was like you know what, this would be the perfect time, since I've got this would be the perfect time, since I've got all this out, be the perfect time to go ahead, take up the old border, get some more retaining wall block and just make it one big retaining wall block thing and do that. So I went ahead and pulled up her border.
Speaker 1:Well, once I got done with that, I was like, oh oh, I finally figured out what I could do, since she doesn't know what kind of flowers or plants or bushes or whatever she wants to put here and I don't like the look of the you know two separate things like they were. I wanted them to all look uniform. I know what I'll do I'll go ahead, fill the whole thing with rocks. That way, all I got to do is just spray some weed killer on grass and weeds when it comes in here, if I don't pick it in time or pull it in time, and when she gets ready, we'll get them, and then we'll, you know, make our little circles punch through, move the rock, make our circles punch through the fabric into the dirt, make the whole planet, we'll be good to go. So that's what I did. So she came home to a not even a half finished project and just kind of walked in. I was like, uh, okay, so I had to go through that whole process for her. So this is what I was talking about when I said, get out and do something, and then also talking about how my brain works on oh, let's do this now, let's do this. Now, let's do this. This is where we're at.
Speaker 1:As you can tell, probably, the rocks are two different color. I am not a landscaper. This thing does not look perfect. It does not look like a landscaper does it. And I was too lazy to go and clean up all of the rock that was around the flagpole, so I've spread that out. I've already put some rock down the other day, but there wasn't enough, and they didn't have the same rock that I had when I did the flagpole. So rather than shop around to try to find it and then say, oh, I need a yard or two yards, or however you measure that crap, I just decided that I would grab a couple of bags of the granite marble and I would mix in the other rocks throughout it, which is what you just saw me doing with the shovel. So that's what we're doing Now. I'm going to start spreading this other rock, going to start spreading this other rock. So this is where our day is going Turn out the same color. So, yeah, all right, I'm going to get back to it.
